Toni’s ashes came home on my dad’s birthday. He would have been 98 on April 16, 2019. Noni died last August and it’s taken this time to pick up the ashes but apparently that was nothing compared to some ashes being left for ten plus years, according to the undertaker. Noni will stay in her bedroom until we spread her ashes on the roses were dad rests.
Days can get very long.
Triny Love Teaser Promo 2
After spending elven months caring for my mother until her passing in August 2018 from dementia, Triny was diagnosed with terminal kidney disease and given five weeks to live.
This is a film about those five weeks.
Portrait of Noni - in development
Give Me the Key is a performance of psychotic demands and emotions caused by Alzheimer’s disease. Originally intended as a live performance, the audio and video installation is part of the accompanied I Have Lost Myself thirty-day film project which presents the everyday rehearsals and confessions of the artist process.
Inspired by Carl Dreyer’s “The Passion of Joan of Arc” (1928), performances are filmed in extreme close-up to emphasize the actor’s emotions and invoke audience response.
Give Me the Key – HD Video, 11 minutes, color/sound, loop
I Have Lost Myself is a powerful and disturbing compilation from 300+ videos, filmed daily over 30 days, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process.
What unfolds is the colliding of performance and the every day as the artist slowly loses her sense of self.
I Have Lost Myself – HD Video, 28:09 minutes, color/sound
To live with dementia?
My family emigrated to America from England in 1966.
Dear Noni and John is the reading of more than 100 letters, written by my aunt in Liverpool to my mother in Los Angeles, between 1966-1969.
I Have Lost Myself and Give Me the Key, is a powerful and disturbing compilation from 300+ videos, filmed daily over 30 days, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process.
If memory is the core of our identity, what happens to our sense of self when it is lost?
Inspired by Carl Dreyer's "The Passion of Joan of Arc" (1928), performances are filmed in extreme close-up to emphasize the actor's emotions and to invoke audience response.
That's what happened.